Welcome 2012...well, kind of. With the start of a new year comes the "resolutions" which I find to be stressful just to think about. It's already the 16th and I haven't even committed to writing them down. I guess I'm stuck somewhere in between "can't let myself down because TECHNICALLY I didn't make any" and "if I put too much emphasis on my resolutions I'll become obsessive and end up being counter-productive". I realize that writing things down makes you accountable, but I don't really know how much extra I can handle this year. After taking the last semester off I will not only be getting back into the groove of school, I will be graduating from it. Crazy eh? Don’t worry-I’ll be back. As reassuring as that is, it’s that much more stressful. GRE, deciding where to go, deciding what to do....I’m perplexed to say the least. I’m afraid I will miss something if I leave, but I’m just as worried that there’s an opportunity somewhere else I will miss if I stay here. I’m aware I can’t have it both ways, but this is where that “obsessive” quality gets super annoying.
ANYWAYS! Back to my resolutions. (or lack thereof)
A lot of what I considered writing down as goals for the year were things along the lines of oh I don’t know-my entire bucket list thus far. Maybe that’s why I’m so overwhelmed with the idea. With approximately 11.5 months left in the year I’ll give it a shot.
In 2012 I, Paige Parkhill, vow (or solemnly swear or whatever), to write more. I don’t mean just write because I write plenty. I keep a journal or two so there are plenty of collections of paper that know exactly what I think, but most of the time I’m too afraid to put it out there for anyone else to see just in case they don’t agree. I take non-confrontational to the next level. I know I have things to say-I think of situations in terms of how I would write it or tell it as a story and I monologue in my car when I drive (mostly in my head of course). If I want to write a book someday I guess I need to get comfortable with other people reading what I have to say. SOOO….in a nutshell I am going (to try really hard) to make the time for more blogging. I definitely will have to remind myself that it’s for personal development and growth etc and not to get my feelings hurt if I don’t have a following. It’s a step in the right direction.
Here’s to new years resolutions and not trying to fulfill mine by making myself over ambitious and writing about new goals I think I need to have for 2012. Cheers!
as your Nanny would have said, "It's about bloody time!" I have been checking for your latest post time and time again. Get your act together if not for yourself than for your poor spinster school marm Aunt who has nothing else!
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